relief vs. confusion

Relief wins. Sooner or later :) hello world! I'm back.

I feel stupid and contagious 
Here we are now, entertain us 

Labuks, mielasis. Gąsdinu pati save. Nei šilta nei šalta. Ir neina suprasti nieko. Skaniai pavalgiau. Geriu kakavą. Floydai ausyse. Šviečia lempa ir girdžiu klaviatūros bildesiuką. Yra gyvenimas, yra tikslų, yra begalybė. Šiandieną mane pakrovė molis. Tapybos dar trūksta. Spalvos yra nuostabus dalykas.

Life is great with all the colours
Even when it is too much of black,
Can you tell me what's the matter?
I used to talk much with my cat.

Here i am, so, what's the matter?
Soon i'll have someone to fuck..
Matches - are those things i gather 
Now i want my truck, my truck

good fucking luck
my love
my light
no need to fuck
it's done
it's right
I need that truck
to go
to slide
I need my drugs
my love
my life

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEGqfSrHTVE

Laisvė nuo svajonių ir laisvė svajonėms. Pavadinimas to, kas jau turbūt antrą savaitę vyksta smegenyse. Bet dalykai klostosi kol kas gerai. Tikslą turiu. Puiku. Šiandien vykstu i VA. Vakarop. Ikiuko ir nuostabaus laiko. MAN.

Just talked with my mom. She's freaked out because of my ideas. The thing is i want to move out and move on. Just me myself and i.World of happy happy joy joy must be materialised. I don't know if that word fits, but whatever. Goodbye pep-ep!

trampampam

Le perfect day for a trip: no sleep, but my enthusiasm is still with me :) I'm going to one of the nicest place in Kaunas: le Pažaislis. Cool stuff are happening in my life. Yeah :) I;m searching for a new job and a place to live - flat or room, it doesn't matter,what matter is my world of happy happy joy joy :) I love my freedom even though it feels a bit empty inside. Oh well. life goes on! 
Sorry for my english. I'm practising it :D babai pypel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=qFUPK4zaQl4&NR=1

Baigėsi orgazminis gyvenimo džiaugsmas. Sudrebėjo žemė po kojomis. Bet tai laikina. Džiaugiuosi dėl didelio žingsnio.Gera, kad išsiskirta be skausmo ir vaidų mėšlo. Džiaugiuosi išsaugojusi puikų žmogų šalia. Nesaugiai jaučiuosi, labai keista paleisti tiek daug akimirkų ir jausmų jose. Bat ai stil luwz. Labo vakaro trupinukai.

Pardon

He doesn't want me. Doesn't want ME. The fuck are we doing? Why do we hurt each other all the time? I bet these are the consequences of "Summer 2012". Niiice... Or my Litlte Serenity is right: there are too fucking many differences between us. Are there? There are, but what the hell is love doing here? Maybe it's not love. Maybe we were too weak to find ourselsfs what we deserved. Fuck you love! Fuck you science! I'm a fucking child standing in the rain with orange umbrella and playing with the plashes and the raindrops.A child. I'd rather die alone in my utopias, than be bounded by some invisible chains. I love my freedom. I like the way i am. i don't want anyone to tell me to hold my horses. I won't. I believe in love. This love made me who i am now. So what the fuck?